A bunch of people were leaving a music festival when I heard a girl dropping that she was neither clever nor beautiful so it was important for her to be funny.

That’s what Lera used to say way before!

I tried to reach out to that festival girl to better understand what she meant, but got distracted and am trying to reflect on it now.

When I was still at uni, I didn’t know that I wasn’t clever or beautiful. I also didn’t care that I wasn’t funny. I was showing up dressed in my self-ignorance claiming I could do stuff and everyone believed me. Somehow.

I worked at a TV channel, I produced a paper zine, I reviewed gadgets - all for money, without any training or (I dare to admit) competence. What made me do it was a bit of pure luck - I broke an expensive TV camera that I took from the TV studio to shoot a music video for a local punk band.

That is my success story. I didn’t care, I needed money. So I worked two jobs while having day studies. I didn’t have time to self-reflect, I didn’t have the luxury to choose what to do as a young mind.

Fake and that’s it - I make the summary in the audio understanding that it worked for me, but… probably won’t work for people with a lesser developed skill of luck.

• In the audio Lera tells her story and I tell how I got an engineering job at Unity and figured I was not qualified for it.

• Below are my moments of misery when I think that I am shit

• Also below I explain what is on the cover and why